taking a rest.

rest:

–noun

1.	the refreshing quiet or repose of sleep: a good night's rest.

2.	refreshing ease or inactivity after exertion or labor: to allow an hour for rest.

3.	relief or freedom, esp. from anything that wearies, troubles, or disturbs.

4.	a period or interval of inactivity, repose, solitude, or tranquillity: to go away for a rest.

5.	mental or spiritual calm; tranquillity.

6.	the repose of death: eternal rest.

7.	cessation or absence of motion: to bring a machine to rest.

this is what i need. though on july 31, 2009, i promised to commit myself to 365 days of sunshine on this little blog of mine, i have realized that this is a bit too difficult at present. why?, you ask.

just as i have had to part with most everything else in my life, i am in need of a rest. a break from blogging, if you will. especially in this season of gratitude, i know the importance of being grateful. and i will not rest from my gratitude; do not fret. i may just be a bit less descriptive, a bit more private about my gratitude as i try and sort out my life.

my apologies.

i hope you're having the loveliest of sundays. i am going to try to enjoy mine here in sunny arizona, that's for sure.

here today, gone tomorrow.

utah yesterday.

colorado today.

arizona tomorrow.

does the madness ever end?

ay yi yi.

it's unbelievable to think that a week ago, i was enjoying a basketball game with my roommates.

i'm glad that i have the memories to enjoy, at the least.

every little thing's gonna be all right.

i woke up in provo, utah.

i'm now going to bed in grand junction, colorado.

tomorrow, i will be home. for good.

i cannot believe it.

i hate rushed goodbyes. and not being able to tie up loose ends. and saying goodbye to best friends (some of which for five months or two years.)

at least my dad was here to help me through this crazy day.

ay yi yi.

this is what i had to keep telling myself to get through the day:

sorry my blog stinks 99.2838393% of the time.

to my roommates...

this is because i love you.

and sometimes, i secretly love your two a.m. "party in the u.s.a." dance parties. just sometimes.

i am so terribly sad that i have to move home on such short notice.

but i digress, check this out:

p.s. byu freshmen made this video... can you believe it?!

i must admit, our music video from the dorms isn't nearly as original. but i still love it.

do you believe in magic?

so often lately, i just want to go back to happier times in my life.

i know that these struggles will end. and that life will get happy again.

but at this moment, i just wish with all my heart that i could return to my safe home, to my loving family, to my blissful childhood.

anyone have access to a time machine?

or even better... a time-turner (hp style, of course)?

they say life is full of surprises.

remember yesterday, when i said i would see my family in eight days and couldn't wait?

well, it turns out that i didn't have to wait nearly as long as i had thought.

after a scary morning and frustrating afternoon in the emergency room, my wonderful father flew out to utah to take care of me.

did i think this would be the situation today? not at all.

i am so grateful for such a wonderful, caring family though.

without them, i would be lost.

a truth.

sometimes, i feel as if i am invisible.

like no one around me knows that i am here or what i am doing.

i know that this concept is full of fallacies because i have an incredible family who constantly cares about me and my situation. and i know that the Savior knows me, even more than that.

though today was hard, i have something to look forward to in eight days.

i can't wait to see them:

they're the best.

do you realize?

this song is pretty beautiful.

it was a pretty nice saturday.

though it was pretty darn cold.

welcome snow. welcome winter.

maybe it's time to hibernate?

i think so.

wrap your head around this...

today i went to a byu basketball game, and i watched it from a couch.

a couch right up next to the court.

i've never been so comfortable at a college sporting event.

also, the mascot asked for a kiss.

and we won!

photos of the crazy event to come!

a blustery kind of day.

today epitomized november.

the sky was a gloomy, ash-gray canvas.

a perfect compliment for the burnt orange, red, and golden leaves barely hanging on to their branches.

and the wind took all of the fallen leaves for a ride through the gray sky.

the bright leaves paired perfectly with the gray background to paint the loveliest fall picture.

oft times, the beauty of this earth astounds me.

freaky fashion.

i'm no fashionista, but i just read an article about the retail item that is supposed to "save" the holiday season... and to me, it just appears utterly absurd.

the "snood." i find these equally as classy as the snuggie, no matter how high-fashion they supposedly are. does anyone agree with me on this one?

some trends should just quit while they're ahead.

other than this little oddity, my wednesday has been quite decently-filled with genetics, gilmore girls, eighth-grade science projects with my argentine amigos, kick-boxing enrichment, and now some sleep!

hope your wednesday was wonderful!

some high points of today:

-a nice, near two-hour nap.

-discovering i can keep my job... hooray!

-learning i am not nearly as incompetent in chemistry as i might've believed.

-some nice phone calls with my dear mother.

-biology. yes, i like biology... call me a nerd; i dare you.

-exercise. i did it. i went to pilates for the first time in two months! it nearly killed me, but i lived to tell the tale... and hope to go back next week!

it was a nice tuesday, i'd say.

also, the public health side of me needs to inform you all to please not text while you drive, ever. i learned today how dangerous it really is. and one measly message is not worth causing an accident, is it?

believe.

"the future belongs to those who believe in their dreams."

-eleanor roosevelt.

well mrs. roosevelt, i'm believing.

hope my future brightens up here.

¡vamanos!

hey benny,

remember that one time we went to europe and all we ate was ice cream?

let's go back.

any other takers?

i love europe. and european ice cream.

come and open up your folding chair next to me.

they say a picture is worth a thousand words.

well, here's five thousand words for you.

and just wait until you see the videos...

then you'll be speechless.

an amazing concert with some best friends makes for one memorable evening.

and that's an understatement.

call that calculation perfect love.

REGINA SPEKTOR=love.

amazing concert.

so amazing, that i feel as if i need to write about it when i am much more coherent.

also, another interesting fact...

have you ever seen anything more messed up?

home.

they say that home is where the heart is.

well, my heart definitely isn't in utah at present.

i am lucky to have such great family at home, but it makes missing them awfully hard.

well byu, it's been fun, but can i please go home now?

service.

today, i was reminded of the joy that can be felt through serving others. for the last two weeks, i have been visiting with the kindest argentine family and helping the kids with homework. they are such a giving family (and fed us delicious argentine food.) just being around them and learning of their culture is such an incredible experience, and i can tell that they appreciate my efforts in helping them. they are helping teach me spanish, and i help them with their english. after volunteering with them today, i was elated. i seriously couldn't stop smiling. i forgot all about my illnesses, my stress, and my troubles, and that rarely happens these days.

i am convinced that serving others can bring more happiness to ones' life than nearly any other activity... and this is part of the reason becoming a doctor is so appealing to me. i am grateful for the chance i have to work with these people, and i am thankful for the chance i have to serve; it is something to look forward to each wednesday!

i am rory gilmore.

have you ever watched a tv show or read a book and realized how similar you are to one of the characters?

well, i've been on another "gilmore girls" obsession streak lately, and the correlation between my current situation and the situation that faced rory at the time was startling.

rory was a mess.

i was a mess.

rory was distraught because she had to drop a class at yale.

i was distraught for the exact same reason (minus the yale part.)

rory felt like a total failure, unable to go on.

i felt the same way.

when watching her go through this time of distress, i found myself thinking she was a little silly. i mean, what's the big deal of having to drop out of a few credits? but then i laughed at myself, realizing that i was her, except i handled the situation far worse.

thank goodness for mothers (whether fictional or real) who can help us perfectionists out in times of our "failures."

in other news,

-the weather has been beautiful. i can't express the joy derived from the concept of sixty-degree weather in november.

thank you, mr. sun!

-i have fallen back into my habit from freshman year of rolling out of bed and going to class in sweats, only to return for a mid-morning nap. it does wonders for this little illness of mine.

- happy birthday to one of my favorite missionaries... and huzzah for being out for five months!

see you soon, old pal!

vocabulario.

i love words.

though recently, i have realized i have fallen into the habit of using the same, mundane language.

and what good comes from that?

so today, i will tell you one of my favorite words of all time: acquiesce.

tonight, i quickly acquiesced to the request of obtaining frozen yogurt with friends.

it was delicious.

what a great way to end a long monday.

sunday funday.

today was a delightful sunday.

church was nice.

roommates dinner was delish.

president uchtdorf is hilarious.

lion king is one of my favorites.

but now, i am exhausted. it is bedtime.

happy sunday to you all!